Advanced course, day 6

...what?!?....

Do I look funny? Am I wearing a lopsided goofy-ass grin on my face? Are my eyes all dreamy and dark because my pupils are dilated because I am looking at her and my physiological reaction is to expand..nay, explode (practically) because she is SO FUCKING GORGEOUS?

Just making fresh pesto with her is enough to drive me close to madness......lust, love, wanting.....sheer unfettered desire.....wowza. Then we EAT the pesto (sigh)....then she goes off to work and I am left to my own devices for a while....gonna go pick her up in a few hours and she'll be smiling so hugely that I will just dive right into it....I will be devoured by her and I won't mind a bit...my flesh stripped from my bones, gnawed upon and licked clean, placed carefully in a pile with my lopsided grinning skull perched on top, and then it will begin again.

What is this love? Feeling without the need to possess, perhaps. Allowing oneself to plummet, knowing the ground is gonna be hard and not giving a fuck because RIGHT NOW is what matters.

That's what I'm thinkin', 'by.