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In the thick of it now..... after some weirdness and some discussion and some good fun I am now feeling things that before I only thought about, and I like it and I want more. One kind of pleasure is another kind of discomfort, and I would rather feel the sting or the thud than open my mouth sometimes, but maybe I can rid myself of that particular type of trepidation by enduring and enjoying it as it happens, when it happens. This heart is strangely calm...no whitecaps....no 20' waves blasting up from a boiling ocean onto rocks..I can lean into the wind on my face and my body and it can hold me up as it licks me (leaving salt) - when I ride it feels like needles on my lips- the same lips that she is welcome to devour- small hungry body and dark smiling eyes that know more than I do and are teaching me plenty....